Why did you choose ballet as a career?
I began ballet because of a vision I had as a seven-year-old girl. I remember seeing a picture of a ballerina in a tutu and immediately I believed I could one day be a beautiful dancer. I had to convince my mom to enroll me into classes because she was adamant about me being a figure skater which is more expected for a petite Asian girl, but I knew that dancing was something I wanted to do.
What are some of the biggest challenges you have faced in striving to achieve your dreams?
I was awarded an apprenticeship at the world famous San Francisco Ballet company but throughout the season, I was barely used because of my 156-centimeter build and lack of turnout in my hips. I continued to work hard to try and show my love for dance, but I just didn’t fit the mold. At the end of the season I was fired by the Artistic Director and left jobless. This was shocking for me as a once semi-famous, talented young dancer coming from Japan. My self-esteem was shattered and I questioned my place as an Asian in the dance world.
How did you overcome these challenges?
To overcome my physical shortcomings as a petite dancer, I traveled to New York City to audition for The School of American ballet whose curriculum focuses on turnout and agility. I knew I had to re-learn how to properly use my body while acquiring the skill to move extremely fast so I could stand out. I was not only the sole Asian in my class, but also the oldest and had to work twice as hard as any other student.
What are some stereotypes you’ve encountered as an Asian ballerina?
The biggest stereotype for Asians in the dance world is that we are poor actors because of the shape of our face and our reserved temperament. In such an expressive art form this can be very detrimental when it comes to casting romantic classical ballets.
Mind over matter, do you agree?
Mind over matter, yes. Over the years, I’ve had to change my limitations into strengths and go beyond physical talent and aesthetics. It takes perseverance and a dream but most of all the ability to look into the mirror and say, “I can do this.”
The Ballet Scene from the Night Porter Film By Danial Kaysi and Amal Jousou Kaysi. Performed by Amedeo Amodio, a great Italian dancer active in late 60’s, 70′ and early 80’s, now a teacher and choreographer.
[via Yume Okano in Stuttgart]